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Tuesday, November 08, 2005
i'm fine. really.
the past few nites wasnt gd ones for me. having nightmares and quarrels. yea. bad way to end our relationship. but i really did not lie to her. but she jus refuse to trust me. but well. thats the way it's always been. had she listened to me, she'd not have got into troubles.
but it's over. had a hard time to sch as i carry an injury with me. yea i admit. got it while quarrelling with her. foolish? mayb. but wad's done is already done. and now im bearing the consequence. im not gonna say till like everything is her fault. i have my fault. i kept her by my side when i'm suppose to let her go. that's why things turned out this way. i'd hoped that we'd end up as frens at least. but i know i can nv do it for the time being at least.
yest.
went back to bg to collect pay and went to bugis to shop for fren's pressie. couldn't stand the pain on my back but i bear with it. am gonna get scolded if missy elaine see this. =X sometimes really hoped that i'd become crippled? then i'd be taken care of. but i know that i'll become a burden instead. so wad am i thinking of? im mad.
ciggy updates : yest had ard 6 sticks? i guess it's gonna get worse today. becos of so many things happening.
today.
am in class now. doing directX programming using C language. (C++). was late for half an hour so im kinda lagging behind. totally lost and worst still, the lecturer is an ang moh. seriously, i feel like quitting sch and work the hell out of me. am bloody bored in this class and totally slacking. no mood for studying. only mood for working and having fun.
well. miss my bg colleagues. miss marmie. miss crappin with alan. fooling ard with alex and so on. feel like getting to work immediately. darn.
i guess i'll be back to isolation mode. seriously. though im typing so much now, but i feel like locking myself up in a room. but i know at least someone wun allow that. nvm who will that be. the most impt thing is that i really wish to be left alone at times.
so guys. jus in case i explode, pls forgive me.
anyway. everything's over. i jus hope things can finally change for the better. i hope all my injuries will heal.
but trust me. i'll nv heal. becos of u, i found smth in my life. but to lose that smth is nv gonna be easy. to u im nothing. but to me u r everything. but i know, someday, i'm gonna lose "everything". yes that day has come. so jus a few words for u if u do read my post. take good care. and be happy always. dun do stupid things.
zhao le. bb.
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