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Sunday, November 13, 2005
i've made up my mind.
a normal sunday routine yet again. soccer followed by lunch and den back to home. sprained my big toe while playing soccer. endured it till the end of game. took off shoe den discovered i cannot walk properly. jialat. wed got match somemore. wonder if i'll recover by then anot. anyway. discover that i really no stamina. damn. maybe its time to take out some time to go jogging.
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as a soccer player, you'd hate to sit on the bench as a substitute. the same goes for me. same goes for life. who'd wanna be a substitute? nobody. simple. because u get a feeling that u r unwanted at times. only wanted when u r a goal down or because a 1st team player is injured. this kind of uncertainty feeling, is making me going mad. i wanna feel wanted. im only human. nevertheless, in order to make me feel wanted, some ppl jus gimme looks of sympathies. i hate it. u can say im stubborn, self centered, whatever. i hate ppl to sympathise with me. take it as im unreasonable. but i jus simply hate it. i dun wanna be appreciated only when i look so pitiful. if thats the case, i rather not wan ppl to appreciate my presence.
now i've made up my mind. nvm wad it is. but at least i've got a decision.
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off to gaming. am really bored now.
ciaoz
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8:37 PM
