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Monday, November 14, 2005
stepping in knowing there's no result
in sch lab.. as usual.. working tml dinner, fri dinner and sat lunch.. had a kinda hard time to sch today morning as i was abit of limping. haha. well. been thinking thru.
why did i continue walking forward knowing that it's gonna be a dead end in front. i knew that i'd still reach that dead end in time to come. but i still chose to go forward. is this wad they call "love is blind" ? i hope not. i'm so blinded. i hate it. it makes me see things so blurly. how i wish i can jus be a cold blooded animal. or a human if u like.
i thought after everything ended between me and yl, i'll be fine. but i never expected more troubles to follow. 1st by my long time fren. and now, another 1. why is my life so screwed? i jus hate my life so much.
having a match on wed. against chalk's team. according to jeremy. wonder if we'll get fly plane again anot. but anyway, i strained my hamstring. so not gonna put too much emphasis on that game. doesnt mean much to me anyway. but of cos, dun be mistaken. i'll still put in 100% commitment if im playing. becos soccer is my life. yea i love soccer and nothing else. (if only that's the truth). perhaps the best way out for me now is to deceive myself, deceive everyone. including u.
go off le. ciaoz
lost ;
2:57 PM
