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Friday, December 30, 2005

i lead my life

haha. yest went to chiong at cocolatte. suddenly realise so much that im leading my life. smoking, drinking and dancing away. feels so great. yea not a real good habit but well, i jus love it ! went with ken, benedict, rui, rui's gf and ban chuan. den in the end, left me ken and benedict. sian half. no gers real sian. next time we must call gers go liao. omg man. hahahaha.
well. nothing much jus that bo da bo lan pa. but our last glass of beer taken away by the staff there. tmd. lol.
den today's lunch function.. hmm.. 30++ pax. me ken and ah dan bao all lor. abit demanding but still ok la. ended work at 4. sian half. den took bus home. read newspaper while on the bus read until neck wanna break liao. -.-
think thats all? haha. handing in gdev tml. really cant care more le. assignments rushing in yet im only half done. i wanna complete it but i cant. plus my working schedule. omg. mayb slack too much earlier on. regrets....
well well. k la. i go watch tv le.. Love Conceirge. nice show. hahaha . =)
-tv tv tv-

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9:01 PM

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

ho ho. belated merry xmas.

hmmm. my previous post was on 22nd. 5 days ago. haha. hmmm. lemme see. i think these few days not really happening la.. jus those boring days YET again. -.-"!

23rd dec.
i think did nothing much except to slack at home? or do proj? i really 4got. haha.

24th dec.
i went out to bugis to get some pressie with yq and den came back at 7+ for my dad's bday dinner. had steamboat at home. den went back to bg to meet them and drank a little there. a few of the staffs were there and at 11+, we travelled towards town. we refers to me and ken btw. haha. we met cc and co there at border's starbucks. den they went to addison's dad or grandpa's "party" . all their aibi company staffs i think. feel like dancing inside cos there's a part where they were playing technos and retros? abt high la =X. den as usual, spraying takes place in town. the spray madness nv stops. den we went to cine to check if there's movie to watch. none though. all selling fast or sold out. den asked abt kbox's price and it was 28+++ . omg. den went to check k pool but expected its full. den last resort, we went to partyworld. aha ! partyworld has rooms. hahah. and there we go again, singing from 2am to 6am. when we came out, it was raining and me and ken ran back to the same bus stop. shall not explain wad's that bus stop abt. but the scene was so familiar in the sense that we had to run under the rain to that particular bus stop and when we reach there, we're trembling like hell -.-"! took a bus to holland v den took cab back cos its so hard to flag a cab in town. especially when cine is flooded! =/ reached home at ard 7am+ and slept for a while.

25th dec.
after i woke up at 11am, i called stan and they were playing soccer. so i went over and joined them. had laksa after the game b4 i returned home and when i reached home, woo, alot of my relatives were alr there. it was my hse warming. haha. den was settling the lcd screen connecting to my laptop stuffs and finally, after much help, it was done! now i can play game in the lcd screen. lol. =X den my mum's frens, wanted to play mahjong. due to insufficient players, they called me -.-"! my 1st time playing with 3 aunties ! my mum and her 2 frens. omg. played 3 rounds and guess wad? i won $104 ! woohoo~!. but sadly, out of the 104 i won, 42 was from my mum. so it had to be voided. =/ so i only win $62. but its better than nothing lo. play with them so stress. they're so fast and they are old birds. haha. but i won eventually . muahaha. den my frens all came over at 7+ except for cc they all. they came at 5+ if i nv remb wrongly. feel so bad. was playing mahjong and din entertain them. =/ den comes the gd news. my darling is attached ! lol. in case u guys dunno, ken is my darling. and ho ho ho, wad a xmas he's got. he's now attached. and i'll no longer be his darling =( hahaha. thats lameeee

26th dec.
hmmm. woke up by a call from joel and he jio us go play pool. den met up with joel and ken who's alr in bugis. went to pool fusion. den went back to parco for KFC. den suggested mahjong again. lol. den jio jean. den we scheduled to meet at 8pm. so went back to pool fusion and play pool b4 heading home. den at the last min, jean cannot make it. she had to go hospital. omg. wondering how's her leg. den we thought of players. wq came to our mind. haha. den called him up. and he came. played throughout the nite until 6.15am lydat. den went to 163 for breakfast. during the mahjong, we drank vodka bought by jean for the hse warming. haha. all face red except wq cos he nv drink. ken's face also not obvious. most obvious red is mine and joel's face. hahaha. den lost 7 bucks lor. sad. hahaha.

hmmm. as for today, will be doing hw later on lor. nth much le. den will be slacking at home i guess. haha. well well. back to big business. stomach is so painful !
-gone-

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2:12 PM

Friday, December 23, 2005

o.O

its gonna be a week since i last blog. haha. been 'busy' this few days. hmmm. dunno where i shall start from.
well. busy with proj. den yest went to k box to sing song. with yanqing, xinru and javan. met rachel at lot 1. hmm. nth much i guess. or perhaps im lazy to describe now. haha. yq took a few pics and im gonna post in on frenster. thats all i think. lolz. seriously. lazy to describe my past 6 days of life. hahahaha. hmmm. guess i'll jus update u guys abt it next time bah. nth much happen also. haiz haiz. hmm. gonna prepare to go work also le. sad. bb
-gone-

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3:11 PM

Sunday, December 18, 2005

sadded.

watched king kong yest. midnite movie at 2.10am and we ended at 5.30am. omg. thats kinda long. while on my way to town, i took 190. den there's this uncle, i dunno for wad reason spit on the bus. den an indian auntie jus a seat behind and beside, scolded that uncle. i was behind that uncle. -.-"! he spat during the trip on the xpressway and the auntie actually quarrelled with that uncle all the way till orchard. and worse still, i had my mp3's volume at 33. which is enuff to cover noises from outside normally. but this time round, i can even hear wad the auntie scolded. can u imagine how loud she was? and it actually took place on a bus. omg.
fastforward it, and we're in yoshinoya slacking. cos we've nth to do till 2.10. den went out to smoke a few times and den smth happened. i was backstabbed. ma de. i hate it lor. zzz. den was fuming all the way.
after the movie, we went to centrepoint only to realise that the mac is closed. cos we wanted to haf breakfast. den we went back to scotts road cos joel says that the mac there is 24 hrs. walked back there. bought sausage mcmuffin with egg and when i cant finish it, i knew smth was wrong. indeed i was right. slept immediately after i reached home and when i woke up at 1.30 lydat, i was feverish. darn. had my L replaced and now becos of fever, i cant work D as well. really wanna work but definitely not in this condition. mummy wun allow anyway. feeling better now though i'll feel giddy when i stand up to walk. gonna rest after blogging.
tml will be liverpool against sao paolo. think is spelled like that. dunno if i'll get to watch it. but i'll wanna watch it. but jean jean and sL bringing little princess ( my sister ) out. i think so. den i'll haf to acc them as well cos i cant possibly leave my sis alone de ma. mummy and daddy working tml also. sian half. but tml's outing not cfm yet also la. so tml den see how lor. hmm.
think im going to rest le la. haha. well well. im off den.
-niteS and swt dreams-

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1:00 AM

Thursday, December 15, 2005

its been some time.

its been some time since i blogged. haha. well well. bloggin for fun? i'll blog detailed de later when at home. jus finished PCGD presentation. doing GDEV assignment. but really stucked. sad. going home soon i guess. haha. blog more when im at home bah.
-bb T_T-

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3:24 PM

Monday, December 12, 2005

wrong day for a right mood

as i predicted, liverpool won 2-0 over the weekend against middlesbrough. though the 1st goal came only at the 72nd min. but nevertheless, we killed off a determined side. reina did well to actually kept his 10th clean sheet. credit to the spaniard.
signed out at 9pm on sat. sL and co came at 9. made juices for them b4 i went to find alan at the coffeeshop to watch pool. met up with them after the match ended and they wanna go chinablack. o.O went to chinablack. had a great 1st hour there? dancing and dancing. so mad abt it. drank and smoked. the perfect situation to relieve wadever stress i haf in me. but the nite took a turn for the worse.
shall not say much abt the troubles. went back at 2am with kenneth. we both shared a cab and chatted with the driver all the way till we're home. the cab driver is so funny. he went to buy mac and the moment he comes back, we board his cab. den he wanna treat us to some fries. but we paiseh, so nv lor. it was his DINNER lor. at 2am. omg. den chatted abt hp. hahaha. reached home at around 2.30? wanted to call girl. but guess she's slping and know she dun like to be disturbed while slping? opted to sms her instead. she replied me the next morning.
den on sun morning, went for soccer. the ground was wet lor. omg. din know it rained. F man. i tried to evade a guy's tackle and ended up slipping instead. sliced my skin at my kneecap area. when i bathe, the sensation was there. omg. its been a long time since i got such injury. but its ok la. still remb the phrase by initial D that female char : "a guy with scar is a man, while those without a scar is a sissy" hahaha. so cute. lolz. well well. not hinting im a man. =X
now in practical class. pon this morning's gem class. ma de. woke up at 8am. how to go? since that teacher told me if u r late, u wun be marked present. den for wad i go sia? waste my time. her lecture is so boring also. and she likes to do some actions which i totally dislike. pls la. wan teach den jus teach la. dun haf to keep swinging ur hair lor. so disgusting? =X its so distracting lor i mean. u teach using both ur hands. but one of her hand is always on her hair. wad she wanna show us? that she's pretty? oh pls. teacher/lecturer is there to teach. not to show how attractive she is. -.-"!
anyway. got the mood to maple sia. feel like going home to play maple but sadly, still gotta attend dora's 2 hr practical b4 i can go home pia maple. ahhhh. someone help me lvl faster? =X
i wan wu sun. wu sun. wu sun. =/
-off to dream abt wu sun- update tonite. ;)

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2:53 PM

Saturday, December 10, 2005

jus a little moody

yest signed off at 9.30. called her. but din say much. den met sL they all. we went to whatever to find ah jean. but while we were sitting down waiting for her, i duno why, my mood turn very bad. all of a sudden. her? work? stress? pms? i dunno. jus know my mood was bloody bad at that time. smoked 1 and a half at a go? around there la. i wanna quit smoking for her sake sia. but its like, i dunno whether i can do it anot lor. haiz. jus woke up den str away blog liao. going to shower now den L D again. -.-"! will see a new ger today. hahaha.u know wad im thinking? =X
k la. i go to shower le. tonite Liverpool Vs Middlesbrough. my prediction 2-0 win to the home side. =)
-off to shower- *cheers*

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10:01 AM

Friday, December 09, 2005

zzzzzzz........

worked L jus now. came back to sp to find sp -.-"! wad a sentence. lol. ate kfc. going back to work D later on. was suppose to expect a 25+1 pax during lunch shift jus now. but nora says its cancelled. ma de. sian lor. although in the end got work to do la. budden feels so sian without the 25 pax. working L D tml also. will miss liverpool's game yet again. against Middlesbrough. hope we'll get the full 3 points b4 we head to japan.
so tired now. yawning man. wonder how i'll last the whole thing later tonite. omg. hope not too much pax yet i wan to be busy rather than slacking. its like, when i slack, time pass so slowly. i rather i work till seh den go home haf a gd slp than to slack man.
gonna start on my assignments liao. damn man. so lacking behind lor. sux man. jialat la. so many assignments to do and so hard. hai hai. aiya. gonna go back to slack awhile. heading back to tg pagar to work le. boring boring boring. ahhhhhh!!!!
-off to slack den work-

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4:00 PM

Thursday, December 08, 2005

so mad .. abt ..

finally moved to petir. my 1st nite at petir. kinda shiok. mayb becos of the environment? got my lcd tv yest nite. dad and mum got it for me. haha. tonite will be able to camp at my hse.
another relief news. i smoked with my dad and mum yest. haha. i discovered that my mum tried to smoke b4 !! omg. haha. they accepted that i smoke and jus asked me not to smoke too much. hmm. i'll heed their advice. but i'll smoke more when im unhappy. haha. at least now i dun haf to hide here and there le.
well well. for those who read my blog, pls be informed that my hse warming will be at dec 25th. dun say i nv invite lo. haha. but i'll still pm u guys to double confirm la. but seriously, staying in petir is abit troublesome when it comes to going to sch. tried it today. took me 45mins to reach sch? around there lo. sian half. need more batt for mp3 le. trying to get myself the rechargeable ones. ahhhhh.
so stressed out. by my projects. doing GDEV on my own. perhaps its the best solution for me? haha. mayb lor. dunno wad to do also. jialat. den ask PCGD de teacher teach me. lolz. kinda cheat? but its like everyone is asking him for help also lor -.-"! hmm. well well. bored man. feel like going home now. sad
missin her now. yea. so sad. cant see her. =X lolz. think later going home to slp den go to sch early tml. den can find xcuse to get away from hubertus's class early on. working tml L D. woot. haha.
suddenly like anyhow writing abt my blog sia. bought S.H.E's new album yest. got the calendar and the entry pass to their upcoming auto session at marina square. its on 10 jan. still cant find anyone to go with me. sad. but their new album certainly rox. so many nice songs. or mayb im biased. =X dunno la. finding myself mad abt hebe recently. 1st zhen ming tian nu, den this album. haha. oh yea. watched chicken little yest as well. missed abt 15mins of the show? i fell aslp. =X previous nite i play mahjong till 6 so din slp much. so when i watch the show, i fell aslp. its kinda slow in the beginning. but i woke up to watch the "climax". lolz. chick little is so cute. hahahahahahah. anyway. really tired now. time to get back to work. mayb will blog tonite. bb.
- ;) -

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3:03 PM

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

wei le ni.....

crap lesson. i hate that lecturer. she's so bias. yea i admit i've been skipping her lessons for some time. but does that mean im condemned?! f lor. zzz. how to go on in such a class? always helping out her "fav" students. den wad abt those who are under her condemned list? might as well send us to another class. yea we pon class. our fault. but does it mean for the next remaining weeks, we no nid to attend her class? since she's not fully committed into teaching those "not fav" students. this is not the way lor.
no comments man. anway. mummy knows i smoke. she said she alr knows i smoke long ago. -.-"! din know im so lousy at hiding things. ma de. hmmm. moving in to petir le. tml. tonite will be the last nite im slping at gombak at my "old" hse. am gonna miss this place cos i can walk without opening my eyes around that area. moving to petir will make me open my eyes bigger though i study in fjss for 4 years. still dunno that area well la. but the plus pt. im able to see her !!!! for ur info, its not yanlu. jus dun wan misunderstanding to take place.
sometimes im thinking. wad if one day, our relationship gets better and better? for now. it certainly dun seem that case. nvm abt wad will happen in future. cos even myself, im so unsure of my future. seeing u, hearing ur laughter certainly brighten up my days which definitely seem so dark to me. the way u crept into my heart. so significantly. but i know, things arent gonna work out. be it u, or me. cos im jus so not ready. but if one day, u come to me and say: "quit smoking for my sake", i will.
nvm abt all these 1st. time to listen to class.
-back to work-

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2:43 PM

Monday, December 05, 2005

a gang of crazy ppl

hmm. din blog for a few days le? haha. nth much to blog perhaps. except for one. that's why im here. on a fri nite, a gang of 4 guys were on their way back. as they sat in the train going towards bishan den bt batok, 3 of the guys had a seat. the last 1 had a seat at 1st but he gave up afterwards and stood in front of the 3 guys. den, all of a sudden, (out of madness?) the one in the middle suddenly hugged the guy standing and keep shouting "bu yao li kai wo!!". yes. SHOUT. mind u. its in the train and its kinda crowded as well. and the guy was so paiseh like hell. all 4 guys acted like gay in the train and one of the guy noticed that alot of the passengers in the train with them are laughing at the 4 guys. hahaha.
frustrated with the crap, the guy standing den shouted " CB LA " and almost everyone turned their attention back to the guys again. omg. hahaha. the 2 guys that are not really involved is like so paiseh. acted as if they dunno them at all. lol. den slowly slowly, the train reaches bishan. the guy in the middle alight. but jus moments b4 that, a quite sweet ger appeared in the train. one of the guy happened to spot her and told the guy in the middle. so he suggested taking the ger's no. but its too late for the guy in the middle as he had to alight at bishan. so off he go. alighting at bishan. but moments later, he called the guy who was standing earlier. he called and ask him to take the ger's no. haha. den after much discussion, the guy who's now sitting in the middle den went over to the ger to try and get her on the fone.
the ger refused. and the guy came back and was repeating "wah lao so paiseh. knn". the other 2 guys, as usual, laughing like mad. den one of the guy noticed the ger turned back to laugh. cos the ger's back was facing the guys. den after draggin for sometime, the guy went again. and the ger refused again. omg. hahahahaha. den in the end, the guy that stayed in bishan, gave up. and the ger dropped off at sembawang. thus the 4 guys named her the sembawang ger. hahahaha.
and most notably, the passengers sitting right in front of the 3 remaining guys, was all along there. and they witnessed every little single nonsense. believed that they are still laughing at the incidents earlier on.
mayb u alr know the ans. yes. the 4 guys are, hong yu, alex, me and kenneth. hahahahaha. but alex dropped off at bishan while hong yu was the one who approached the ger for her fone no. me and kenneth was laughing like mad while kenneth was "multi tasking". he was smsing cc. tmd. left me all alone. i was watching the show all along and noticed alot of the passengers were laughing at us. omg. its like damn paiseh lor. haha. but i think blogging it dun really seem funny. mayb u shld come to me and ask me for the explanation and mayb u'll find it even more funny. hahahaha.
well well. had soccer yest. nth much. den went to bugis and got myself a beanie. hehe. beanie beanie. i looked like a robber. =( sadded. everyone is saying the same thing. i wanna cry liao. hahahaha. as if ! im no longer the cry baby lun during pri sch times. wahahaha.
am now in sch's lab. teacher leaving us to do assignments but not everyone is doing the assignments. hahaha. think im gonna play dota with AI.
-off to dota-
=)

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2:29 PM

Saturday, December 03, 2005

...

had a conversation with jingjie jus now. flashes of my past, came thru my mind. every bit, every part. how i endured all nonsense, how i endured all insults. to think that someone actually told me that the person thinks that im the wild while yl was the matured one. oh come on. dig ur eyes out bah. she's the wild one while im always the one doing all those shit stuffs. crap. yea. its over. no pt digging everything out. but why must i be reminded of it? crap shit. i hate it. i hate it.
im not blaming u jingjie. jus that i hate to think of the past. makes me feel so insulted. was made to look like a fool to her. yea. mayb im still blaming her. but why? i dunno.
talked to a few frens but none reply. except for one who replied later. sad. i din know im so pathetic. but who cares. at most i'll become a loner nia lor. working dinner shift later. will miss liverpool's game against wigan. oh well, might as well dun work u might say. but if i dun work, how am i suppose to haf money to spend? am still considering whether to move out. ha. ppl must be thinking. u r mad lor. moving hse liao still wanna move out. but who can understand the bloody pain i go thru from staying with my family? nvm abt that.
think im going back to prepare for work.
-off to shower-

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3:55 PM

Thursday, December 01, 2005

missin her.

am in sch's lab T2024 again. well. im suppose to be on MC today. dunno why jus wanna come sch. cant stand loneliness at home? or mayb am afraid of facing the bloody 4 walls in my room. yea. 7 more days and i'll face a new wall. moving in to petir on 7th dec. its been confirmed already. heard from dad that my room is ready. he keep asking me to go and have a look but i think there's no pt since we're moving in a week's time.
jus got xiao zhu (luo zhi xiang)'s new album - Cui Mian Show - from michelle. thx alot ya? =) like zi wo cui mian. hai. listening to it now.
hmm. sad. missin her. for ur info, it's hebe. so dun think so much. like zhen ming tian nu so much. feel like watching again. hebe is so cool. =D likes her character xiao rou so much. but now the vcds are with sp. den i'll haf to lend hy also. hope after they watch le, return me asap. den i can watch again =) haha. im mad abt hebe. i know. wahaha.
anyways. so lost in class again. thats why i haf the time to blog. assignments are all out. kinda blur cos i seem to haf no grp. sad. but nvm. solo lor. hope i wun die that badly. wahaha. argh. guess its time to go back to work. anyway. working D later in bg. replaced pascal. haha. someone scold me. wan be superman cos i jus recovered from gastric. lol. mayb i wanna be superman bah. nv tried wearing underwear outside. =X haha. ok. jus jk. time for practicals YET AGAIN. =/
-back to work-

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2:54 PM