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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
dunno why
i really dunno why i should bother. her similiarities. so similar. i couldn't believe it. its all like a dream. i dun wan the same ending ever again. that jus sucks.
ouch. jus cut my hand. i dunno why this few days my anger fuse easily. mayb becos hard disk crash at the wrong moments? maybe.
now i seem to get angry anytime someone pisses me off slightly. including her. sometimes life's jus so fucked up. always taking the wrong steps at the right time and the right one at the wrong time. zzz.
suddenly my life fills with hatred. i hate ppl's attitude. i hate ppl ignoring me(but i dun grab attention). i hate ppl who jus fucked me up anytime anyday. and i hate chelsea. hate going home. hate doing assignments. hate myself !
aint got time for all this shits. jean jean asked me to hang on. i AM. but wad's the pt when things seem to go even wrong for me? i seem to have endless complaints. and hell i tell u, Yes i haf ALOT more to complain. did wonder if i'm the one in the wrong. mayb yes. i do admit that. (hey, im not a fcuking unreasonable freak) but sometimes i dunno why, ppl jus cant realise their mistake.
jus like my lecturer. she thinks she's fcuking big jus because she's my lecturer? so wad? big fcuk? she doesnt understand. a lecturer is meant to teach. but wad is she showing? biasness towards her "fav" students and neglecting those that nid help. the lecturer SHLD BE HELPING THOSE WHO NID HELP AND NOT THOSE WHO ARE DOING WELL AND SHE'S HELPING THEM TO DO EVEN BETTER AND NEGLECTING THOSE THAT DUNNO HOW TO DO.
mentioning this. seriously makes my blood boil. if i ever see that shit happen again, dun bet against me not throwing my temper. a lecturer is also a human. they make mistakes too. and for goodness sake, this mistake made by this lecturer, is goddamn bloody terrible.
her attitude makes me feel like quitting school. and i mean it. who can stand such a lecturer for 3 semester?! not me at least.
zzz
blood is at 80 degrees.
dun wanna say any longer.
im fcuking off
-fcuked off-
lost ;
10:39 AM
