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Thursday, March 30, 2006

is love really selfish?

haha. jus got this qns. watching dream chasers. shi xin hui fighting for wad she wants. and she MUST get she wants.
is love. really selfish?

lost ;
8:51 PM

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

10 days

its been 10 days since i blogged. or mayb more. so many things happened.
jus got my results. a total sucky result. no further comments. screwed my cumulative gpa. im seriously thinking that im jus lucky that i wun haf to face her again. totally freak me out.

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how many ppl in present, are actually doing jobs that they like? why must i insist on doing a job that i like? i used to be confident. very. that i'd make it big someday. but things happened and everything changed. but if i jus give up, its as good as saying that im useless.
someone told me. its impt to know wad u wan in life. thats very true. since my dreams are all shattered, i think its really no pt trying to hang on to my dreams. afterall, like someone said, dreams arent reality. she woke me up. u dream to achieve. achieve the best that u can. only that, will ever make a person fulfil their dream. even if its not close, but at least they tried.
my family aint well off. i know how hard my parents had been struggling. i jus cant be spending their money all day long. though i admit my future is in serious doubt, but at least, i hope to ease my family members' burden. i wanna be paying for everything on my own. i dun wanna depend on them anymore. because i dun wan ppl to think im a small boi again. im 18 turning 19. this cant go on. ive gotta find back my confidence. the confidence that made me think that i can become somebody one day. ur words. gave me something to think abt. i wun be able to find it back immediately. but i believe i will. hopefully, its as much as ur belief in me. i'll prove u wrong.
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sounds serious. dun i? yea. the above msg is meant for someone. having driving lesson later. and after tonite, i'll be able to book TP liao. hopefully i wun get too far a date.

lost ;
12:20 PM

Saturday, March 18, 2006

i miss u. so much.

wasnt really in the mood yest. becos i dun get to see her. went for driving prac and i completed stage 3 in jus one lesson. believe it? but sadly, the instructors have requirements and that is cannot chop too many in one prac lesson.
went home and received joel's call for supper. went over to gombak 347 and went home after that. was waiting for her call. waited till 4am. bth le den go slp. sort of disappointed that i din received her call. wondering wad is she doing and how is she doing.
today's stan's bday party. seriously. im not in the mood to party. but i jus gotta party. how else would i get past sat with ease? suddenly, without her with me, i feel that life goes on so slowly. when im with her, time passes so quickly that i dun even realise it.
dear. i miss u so much. T_T

lost ;
12:43 PM

Thursday, March 16, 2006

driving's getting fun.

love driving so much. jus like i love her. lol. its so fun. though it really requires alot of concentration. hmmm. fun fun fun. drivin drivin drivin.
jus bored anyway. the whole day at home. slp till 6pm. nth much today.

lost ;
9:49 PM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

jus so terrible.

feeling so terrible. aiks. feel like vomitting yet i cant. stomach so pain that ive become close frens with toilet. torture arrrrrr. somebody help me!!!! now i really nid help. [plshelpme]
T_T

lost ;
12:52 PM

Sunday, March 12, 2006

how fast things can change

now i realise. how fast things can change. a sudden change will cause such a big change in a person's life. now that im involved, i truly believe in it.
jus mahjong this few days. nothing much. nothing much to blog either. nites.

lost ;
4:43 AM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

when im tired = pissed with myself

chalets this 2 days. one at chevrons, the other at aloha loyang. din really get much slp. and now im so freaking pissed off with myself. dunno why. perhaps becos i cant get things right? lack of concentration = unable to complete my job properly. wad ever job it is, i jus wanna put it right. but now it seems that i cant do it. zzz. so freaking pissed off with myself right now. aint got mood for anything. perhaps only liverpool tonite. or even her. other than that, 2 words. no mood.

lost ;
6:36 PM

Friday, March 03, 2006

one night in teck whye

went to teck whye garden for bbq. kailing's bday. she invited her poly frens and her brother's frens are there as well. den sec sch frens, only me, bearbear, xinru & javan(a pair), yanqing and samuel. went to kailing's hse after that. only me, bear and xinru went. javan gotta study and yanqing and sam went back early. hmmm. jus fooled around there.
when we reached there, the war started. was having my sotong when kailing attacked me. didnt realise until the cream was on my face -.-"! had coke spilled on my hair as well. =/
den went to prime supermarket to buy coke, orange, ice lemon tea and mountain dew. guess wad. we attacked kailing when she's unaware! the small bottle of coke, orange and ice tea was for her! wahaha. preplanned. =X there goes her hair man. she must thanks us for "perming" her hair for her. lolz.
was jus splashing water here and there. played a few games of "iceman" running around the playground. played treasure hunt. and our grp won. hmmm. was kinda interesting i must say.
other than that, i guess it'd be the paper i had this morning. kinda ok. feel like im writing compo. gotta write stories out and explain those dunno wad u call it. but jus a qns2a, i wrote the whole page. -.-"! den went back bg to hand andre the final destination 3 vcd. asked him to pass the vcd to jason. den took cab home -.-"! 11bucks gone T_T. but i chose to take cab, so no regrets. lolz.
kinda tired now. or rather, very tired. tml's got driving lesson. yay! am so looking forward to it. keke.
well well. nth much to blog i guess. time for bed. -nites-

lost ;
3:13 AM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

wad lies ahead

wad lies ahead of me now? uncertainty. where does my future lies? nowhere. wad am i living for everyday? the 24hrs given free. using to do nth but slack. nth meaningful is done each day. all i know is to slack, to enjoy.
having a game of soccer with the restaurant's staffs tml. working night shift tml. and im having pcgd paper on thurs. my last paper. no study mood at all. its been like this all the time.
suddenly. no mood. zz.
-gone-

lost ;
2:58 AM