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Wednesday, July 12, 2006
sudden urge
hmmm. got the sudden urge to go "u know wad". im off. va va voom!!
lost ;
2:10 AM
this is the 1st time im doing such things.
tio summon for the 1st time. hurt my back and is still swelling. we were at marina south when benedict shouted "A, SIAO LIAO". the stupid kee carpark person come. den me and benedict nv put coupon. so we ran below the rail to rush to our cars. benedict nv tio, i tio. summon and rail. both. -.-
knock my back against the rail while running towards our cars and similarly, i tio summon while benedict nv! tmd.
today's the 1st time i did smth like this. seeing how happy they are, even i myself, im surprised. i can actually see them go together and act as though nothing happens to me. i know. i chose this path. im ready for wadever things i'll see. its nv easy. but i nv expect myself to come to terms with it. jus the thought of it pains my heart. but nevertheless, her smiles are more impt. jus by seeing how happy she is when she's with him, at least i know, she's happy with someone else.
hmm. shall not tok abt it anymore. back's hurting. gonna slp le. nites all.
lost ;
12:55 AM
Saturday, July 08, 2006
things left unsaid, pointless.
alot on my mind. dunno how to release one by one. dunno how to express myself. everything kept inside. dun mind even if im mistaken by anyone else.
reached home at around 5.15am. nothing but her keeps popping on my mind. even when im running 140km/h at BKE. shld stop this. damn. dun wanna throw my licence away jus lydat.
wrecking my own brains with thoughts. thinking why shld i keep everything inside? why cant i jus express myself well? why cant ppl understand wad im thinking? the only ans i got from myself was, im jus useless. -.-"!
banged my last finger onto smth jus now. no one knew. feeling the pain now.
ok. gotta go slp. mum's nagging. nites.
lost ;
5:39 AM
Monday, July 03, 2006
if i only had a month more........
if i only had a month more, i'll jus disappear from everyone.
start everything afresh. and give myself new memories for that remaining one month.
can only regret not fulfilling my own promises. promises which i made to myself. to her.
tearing. bleeding. disappearing.
lost.
lost ;
8:18 PM
